Despite what I want to tell you, I don’t have my binge eating under control.
Quite often it flares up, and I’m left wondering why. Why now?
Why now, at the beginning of 2017, when everything is supposed to be regimented and better?
Why now, when all I see on social media is how good everyone is doing with their New Year’s Resolutions, am I’m sitting here stockpiling my mouth with leftover Christmas candy, telling myself it will be different tomorrow?
Why now, when I’m supposed to be getting better, when I’m so FUCKING SERIOUS about getting better?
It’s like the more I want something, the deeper I obsess over it. When it feels threatened, the monster inside of me rebels. It wants to remind me it’s still here and doing well. It wants to show me who’s boss.
I’ve noticed a pattern.
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